| What a perfect place to rant the random thoughts dancing in my head.
The human mind is complex, controversial, sadistic, hypocritical.
All lives lead down a path, where some believed their destined to follow one distinct road, but I feel it is paved with every decision we make, with every step we take. Some just constantly go from bad place to bad place leading to a self destruction of an individual. Some are "lucky" and have well rounded and "happy" lives. But all, including these people, have the ups and downs. However, they are handled in countless ways. The one I think of is why do people decide the best solution to problems is to completely get away from it with the ultimate sacrifice? Controversial as this is, I guess some that do it are truly insane and in reality do not have a "way out", but what about those who do it so spontaneously. Or do it for simplistic reasons. What if a person who decided this was his or her time to end was given a chance to do the deed, but live through it without physically existing? To not only see what it does to everyone around them, but to be able to have some time to think and reflect what it was they exactly they ended their lives for. I'm sorry. I try to be sympathetic to anyone who knows someone that has done it, and maybe the reason was just. But overall, this method of handling depression, sadness, problems, etc. is a selfish act that sends shock waves to everyone close to them. And for some of these people, it's a lifetime of trauma they may never get over.
Now, I'm being kind of hypocritical in a sense. There has been a time where I've been there. The thought circulating around my head and, you know, I'm sure many others have one time or another have had the same thought. But for those that are still here, kudos.
Suicide. Yes a random topic, but it is a troubling one that seems to become all too prevalent with teenagers and young adults(not trying to exclude the others) in which I wish the ones who contemplate it over trivial reasons try to get a different mindset. There are so many healthy ways to prevent it. Write, talk to someone you can trust, get help.
One life to live, meaning you have one chance to do something with it. End it one a note in which you can say that you tried, or you went through a rough spot but made it out ok, but not on one to where it leads to an abrupt and preventable ending...
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| so im updating...which im gonna admit..it will not be impressive
in one sentence...My life has changed and im confused about things.
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| things change..people change..some for the better and some for the worst
i think we as people are ALL fake..at least having occasional...maybe rare... episodes of it (myself included) and its all very sad
warning: pick and choose wisely
(whoa..i had a serious moment..BUT I CAN HAVE MY MOMENTS..so kiss my ooo ooo)
me sleepy now |
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| what??? an update amazing...not much to say except i eventualy will get the hang of using this computer.. the weekend was not too bad..friday was basically it for hanging out with ricardo mallory allyssa brandon ashley and scotty at the good ol mall..good times shoving 7 ppl into allyssa's car
work was work..the guys there give me a good laugh all the time
tonight i had a good time hanging out with kyle bobby and jordan and andy temporarily...me and kyle and bobby went to hardees for a bit and thats about it and now im tired
sleep=GOOD
i love all of my lovely friends forever and ever and ever <3
and i love emily forever and ever and ever <3 |
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| it just so happens that i find some time to update on a finals night cuz all there needs to be done is studying which i barely need to do... two concerts in which i wanna go badly are taste of chaos and the academy is
this past weekend i saw chronicles of narnia which was pretty good and on saturday it was like 4hours at the mall which i accomplished zero christmas shopping..i was too tired to think
i cant wait till break and on the 26th emily comes back for a bit so im excited about that
lately ive been in a carefree mood mixed in with tiredness..kinda having the urge to just do something but too lazy to do it
and apparently for my lunch next semester..it says 5B on it now my advisory teacher says that the b means the lunch this time but other people tell me different so yea..im not actually sure when i have lunch..guess ill clear it up tomorrow
<333 I LoVe eMiLy <333 |
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